making money...........from home.

From today i want to write about a few ways we housewives can make money from the hustle bustle of home.
When we come here to US as housewives....our lives change...more often then not....forever.Of course somebody out there can tell me marriage always changes us. And yes, I agree with you all. But being uprooted from your family and moving thousands of miles away, from everything you always knew since a kid.........well that changes us a lot more.For some of us the change is more evident, i mean, the ones who were working back in India and/or pursuing a higher education like me but have to shift gears as housewives here, is very dramatic.
I had to fight serious depression which continued all through my pregnancy and still have to deal with at times.
Out of all that boredom and feeling of being a total failure were born some ideas.........a glimmer of hope to make my life and my mind easier.They helped me not to feel like a parasite on my husband...........though my mom will strongly disagree with the word parasite.

well coming to the ideas....lets go one at a time.

1.Babysitting
yep.babysitting....though you are at home some lucky ones do get work permits to go out and work. And if they have little ones,90% of the time they prefer somebody who speaks their own language to take care of them.If not any well recommended housewife.
naysayers please stay at bay.
yes, taking care of kids is not easy.That too when the kids are not our own. But for most of us the maternal instinct kicks in and babysitting can be a whole lot more.And yes it is for the ones well endowed with patience and love for babies.Patience for all the diaper changes,clean ups and some not so good days.
work timings  .....your day starts from 8/9 am to 6/5 pm.
and if you are interesed you can work on the weekends also.
income...........varies from place to place and family to family.
In the north and east, the income is more can vary anywhere from 1000 to 1500 dollars per a baby per month.
But in the south,it is never more than 800 dollars.
qualifications.......love of kids,patience and spontaniety.previous experience added advantage
benefits.... you are working at your own.no investment,educational qualifications or training required.
how ...... how to get kids to your house.now having contacts always helps. The word of mouth publicity is the best.Advertising in websites like sulekha or ek nazar gets you calls from parents.Giving out fliers is a good option.....in apartments or indian grocery stores.

lost

lost. thats what i feel again and again.
this blog is more an attempt to find myself through the good and not so good days of life as they unfold.hope i can find myself soon before i lose everything.
i want to be frank and honest with myself .
okay,now what do we have here.
I am a 5 feet 120 lb female married for almost 6 years. born and brought up in India.complexion dark.education masters in science.attempted to do phd but married and moved to US by the second year of phd. kids.... 1 daughter who turns 5 this july.job none as of now, that make a stay at home mom............do i like it no.
what i like abt it...................nothing.
always teased and bullied from kindergarden to university....why? too short and too dark.but i have seen guys darker than me survive and be happy.
i am happy that i did my masters but regret that i left my phd after working so hard to get my fellowship(csir).
i am not rich nor poor....at least not as poor as we were in the first years of marriage.do i like it? no.
i am happy that i am not poor though having more more would enable me to buy things or go places i want to.
i cant drive.......so i cant go anywhere by myself  which i hate a lot more since hubby n kid are homebuddies while i like seeing new places.
my regular outing..............walmart,heb or costco for groceries n stuff         ................. though i would like a trip to the lake or park,a flea market more appealing.
why i dont drive..................bcos i dont trust a stranger to teach me driving ..................i am scarred for life after being molested by people i trusted. hubby does not know abt it .....................but he has no time to teach me how to drive.
what do i like to do?
i used to write poetry and short stories. but not anymore. why? i donno. ijust do not feel like it anymore.
i used to draw a lot.i was pretty good at still life and  abstract. now i dont draw at all.
i was not bad at bead jewellry..............but lost interest in it when hubby started complaining that i spend more than i make.
job?   i had one until i was laid off . never applied again bcos my kid was not happy in a day care setting.wish to l get out once she goes to school fulltime.and that will be after this august.
until then i need to survive.

work out

i am going back to the gym again.
its like 5 months ago that i stepped foot in the gym.thanks to the india trip,parties, the sweets .....yum., i need to seriously loose some to get into my shirts again without showing off any muffin tops etc etc.
it felt good actually invigorating to break some sweat there....did not really expect to stay on threadmill for more than 10 mins but relieved to manage 45 mins.
hope to keep up everyday.

what do i want?

what do i want??????????????
one question that bothered me
when i had what i needed.

maybe time
maybe health
maybe wealth.
then there were times
when all i wanted was
a shoulder to rest on.

what do i want???
maybe happiness
maybe freedom
maybe success
then there were times
when all i wanted was to
be a kid.

to play
to laugh
to cherish
like there is no tomorrow

what do u want??????????????????

first time after a long time

i am not new to blogging as per se but i am a returning blogger.
This is my first blog in maybe more than 2 years. hope to be around a while.